A year ago, I drove out of my home town, scared and excited for what is to come. I feared everyday as I was without my family and without a clue as to what I was heading into but also just incredible grateful for this Family of 6, this big enough family who took me in and cherished me as one of there own. I think down in there hearts, they knew what was in store for me. This girl who wanted to get on the right path with God, no matter what it took, and I think they knew, and tried to warn let me know that while the jounrey is worthwhile and life changing, it was not as easy as I thought it was going to be.
Let's take a trip into my ideas as we drove away.
"Alright, this is going to be good, I'm going to go to church and do school and pray everyday and bada-bing bada boom, I'm fixed! Whooo hooo! One year and I'm going to be the best person in the world....."
Yah... ok there Caitlind.
I was half right and half right, yes I was going to start going to church and yes I was going to pray everyday and do school, but for all different reasons. I was in Duncan to grow up and to grow in Christ. I've learned so much in such a small time, and I can tell you, while I may certainly not be the best person in the world. I've learned that I am a good person, and I have talents and a personality that God loves and that God, really and truly loves me.
One thing I have learned this year is how to rely on him, because there were nights, where I had no one but him, I couldn't run to my family because I knew that it would have been a bad situation, and it wasn't something I could run to Aubrey too, because she was just told me some things I didn't want to hear, but I had to process and accept them, and there only person I could yell at or cry to was the Lord, and he was there, every time. Sometimes he would cry with me, and sometimes he would talk through it with me. But the point is, he was there.
Together, me and him, with help from Aubrey and Koos and even the kids. I have done a Godly 360. I hope to continue to spin and change and circle myself in the word and the Lord.
Wow, I just did a typo and it gave me the coolest message. I was going to type "circle myself in the word" and I typed "circle myself in the world" What a different meaning, and the only difference is the letter L, and if you take that as taking the world's view of the Lord out of the world's perspective, and look in the word. You really find out who he is.
Let's take a trip into my ideas as we drove away.
"Alright, this is going to be good, I'm going to go to church and do school and pray everyday and bada-bing bada boom, I'm fixed! Whooo hooo! One year and I'm going to be the best person in the world....."
Yah... ok there Caitlind.
I was half right and half right, yes I was going to start going to church and yes I was going to pray everyday and do school, but for all different reasons. I was in Duncan to grow up and to grow in Christ. I've learned so much in such a small time, and I can tell you, while I may certainly not be the best person in the world. I've learned that I am a good person, and I have talents and a personality that God loves and that God, really and truly loves me.
One thing I have learned this year is how to rely on him, because there were nights, where I had no one but him, I couldn't run to my family because I knew that it would have been a bad situation, and it wasn't something I could run to Aubrey too, because she was just told me some things I didn't want to hear, but I had to process and accept them, and there only person I could yell at or cry to was the Lord, and he was there, every time. Sometimes he would cry with me, and sometimes he would talk through it with me. But the point is, he was there.
Together, me and him, with help from Aubrey and Koos and even the kids. I have done a Godly 360. I hope to continue to spin and change and circle myself in the word and the Lord.
Wow, I just did a typo and it gave me the coolest message. I was going to type "circle myself in the word" and I typed "circle myself in the world" What a different meaning, and the only difference is the letter L, and if you take that as taking the world's view of the Lord out of the world's perspective, and look in the word. You really find out who he is.
