Free

I wish to be free
To be free of the body that is holding me
holding me back
holding me tight
Captive.

I wish to fly among the stars,
to dance atop the trees
to walk above the clouds
and swim at the bottom of the sea.

I wish he to be there with me,
the one who loves me
the one who has freed me.
I have to wait.

Someday I will be free, and he with me.
Where love will overflow
Where my heart longs to be.
With the one who carries me.

-Caitlind

My name is Caitlind

And I have Social Anxiety.

Yes, it's real, and no it's not just "over-shyness"

Social Anxiety Disorder (social phobia) is the third largest mental health care problem in the world today. I am trying to learn to cope with it, but pretending that it's not real, or that I'm over thinking it, doesn't help me.

When I have thought about if I had this, I know that people would think many things, "You mean being shy is now a disorder?"  "I've never met anyone with these symptoms," but it is real. It's frustrating and it's difficult.

Some common symptoms are

• Eating or drinking in front of others.
• Writing or working in front of others.
• Being the center of attention.
• Interacting with people, including dating or going to parties.
• Asking questions or giving reports in groups.
• Using public toilets.
• Talking on the telephone.

I've been watching this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmEJEfy5f50

It's been helping me understand a bit more, and if you want to know what it feels like to have this disorder. I suggest you give it a watch.

Bring the beat back.

No, how bout no.

Man, I am hyper, this is a pointless blog.
No point,
Just sillyness

My mind is like full of weirdness today.
I feel like booping everyone on the head.




Yah, I should probably take a walk or something.