Bah, I'm sorry, but I cannot get a hang of this whole learning a different language thing. Sure, I think it's cool and would love to be bilingual, but my brain just cannot make it all come together. My comprehension of French is not so bad, but I just cannot seem to write stuff down, or form my own sentences or anything. It's the grammar. I hate grammar. I love reading, and cannot stand writing. How messed up is that? I love to read and hear about science and social and I like to verbally discuss things, but once I have to start writing things down, I'm stumped. Stumped stumped stumped! I also cannot spell!
It's no wonder I am taking so long just to graduate. This life challenge that everyone has to go through. It would be easier to just drop out and living a meaningless life doing basic jobs and just paying rent. However I don't want to live a life like that! So here I go, fighting and struggling and trying hard to do this. It's taking everything I've got, and a lot of help from God to do this. My support group isn't large, just God and Aubrey and Koos, but they are all I need to keep going. To simply have two people who deep down believe in God's plans for me is enough to keep me fighting.
I know to the outside world, I look like a lazy irresponsible kid. Don't let me fool you. I am, but the difference is, is that K&A know that I have potential to do something with my life and change for God. So I guess with them and God, and with(heaven forbid) some confidence on my part. Maybe I can just get this stupid stuff done and move on with my life.
Who knows!
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