Blessed are thoes who mourn.

Blessed Are Those who Mourn Matthew 5:4

 

I'm going to a program called Life's Healing Choices. It's to help you deal with your hurts, hang-ups and habits.

I know I have alot of baggage. Everyone does. And in one of the first lessons was this verse. Blessed are those who mourn. 

At first that made me feel relieved. Thank God, there's nothing wrong with me sitting a crying over the loss of my relationship with my Mother who felt it was totally ok to abandoned her kids because she found a boyfriend who was still married. 

But at the same time, I feel so stupid. A 19 year old, crying for mommy. But I think it's ok that I feel that way. My heart still hurts all the time, but I wonder when does it get to the point that I move on? 

I don't want to be 40 still crying over mom, and that's why I'm going to Life Healing Choices, and I supposed to ask God to help me with the pain and the mourning, but how long will it take me? What's the right amount of time? How do I mourn the right way....?

I'm confused.