More cool that YOU could possible imagine!
But first, let's lay out the scene.
Sit back and pretend to close you eyes, because if you really did, then you would have to stop reading...
Picture a very angry 18 year old girl.
Sitting in her room, on her computer, pretending that nothing happens outside her door. Living in her own head, doesn't trust or believe in anyone. Parents have split up. Her mum is off in la-la-land. Her dad is trying to keep the kids together. She has dropped out of school and have given the middle finger to life.
Sounds pretty pathetic in my opinion. But last year, as this very time. That is were I was. I had given up, and NO ONE was going to change my mind. Yet for some reason, the only place I ever felt like I could breathe was when I was with Aubrey, having a coffee and just pouring out my soul about how awful my life was. I think now, Aubrey must have been thinking, why is this kid whining to me. But I can see now that God had the most incredible plans for me. God put on Aubrey and Koos's heart to take a chance on me, and invited me to come live with them in Duncan.
The very idea, freaked the crap out of me at first, but I really honestly believe that if I didn't go. I would never finish school and I would sit in my room and rot.
But, after much thought, prayer, tears, heartache, goodbyes to friends and pets. I did it. I moved.
Now, life isn't perfect. I don't wake up every morning singing with birds and baking pies with a smile on my face. But I'm getting my school done and I've never been more excited to finish, and to get my own place and to start (GASP) living on my own. I thought so sure I would NEVER EVER get here!! But that is the incredible power of Jesus went you let him in your life. I don't think I can fully type out just how amazing I feel at this very moment, but try for a second to imagine me going
"howiwanttoplanmynewplaceenventhoughifonthaveoneand
imstilllookingforoneeventhoughtistillhavemonthstogoandit
mightnotevenworkoutbutgodissocoolandmaybeitwillandithink
imgoingtogetaonebedroomandiwonderhowmuchmoneyimgoing
needandomgiamsoexcited......."
God is sure dang cool.
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