New DAY! NEW START.
SHIT JUST GOT REAL.
Hi, you may know me from such posts as "The Truth is Out there" and others.
This a blog about self-frustration.
You see, I, Caitlind Elsa
Am 240 pounds, I am 5,5 and I’m 19 years of age. I eat carbs at least 5 time’s a day. I love starch foods, everyone and all of them.
The Doctor says that I need to stop eating starch for about 2 weeks and only eat vegetables and meat and berries.
This is supposed to help me lose 14 pounds in two weeks.
I should also only be drinking water.
I’ve prayed, I’ve made a list, I’ve told myself time and time and time again that I need to do this, or I am going to be sick. I’ve tired to make walking resolutions and I’ve tried to do this for about a year now and I have never really made it. I’m at wits end trying to come up with a way to do. I don’t how to make this “Wake up in the morning and really make a change” thought or choice. I’m not sure how to do it.
What do I NEED to do. I’m not really sure.
I know that being "skinny" is just a North American thing, and this really isn't just about looking good. I want to be healthy. I want to not worry about the pain in my chest. Or wonder if I will be able to walk when I'm older, or about all the stress I put on my body. I want a change... yet I make none. I pray and pray and here I still am.
Am I praying wrong? What am I doing wrong?
Oh great universe!
You got any answers.. at all?
SHIT JUST GOT REAL.
Hi, you may know me from such posts as "The Truth is Out there" and others.
This a blog about self-frustration.
You see, I, Caitlind Elsa
Am 240 pounds, I am 5,5 and I’m 19 years of age. I eat carbs at least 5 time’s a day. I love starch foods, everyone and all of them.
The Doctor says that I need to stop eating starch for about 2 weeks and only eat vegetables and meat and berries.
This is supposed to help me lose 14 pounds in two weeks.
I should also only be drinking water.
I’ve prayed, I’ve made a list, I’ve told myself time and time and time again that I need to do this, or I am going to be sick. I’ve tired to make walking resolutions and I’ve tried to do this for about a year now and I have never really made it. I’m at wits end trying to come up with a way to do. I don’t how to make this “Wake up in the morning and really make a change” thought or choice. I’m not sure how to do it.
What do I NEED to do. I’m not really sure.
I know that being "skinny" is just a North American thing, and this really isn't just about looking good. I want to be healthy. I want to not worry about the pain in my chest. Or wonder if I will be able to walk when I'm older, or about all the stress I put on my body. I want a change... yet I make none. I pray and pray and here I still am.
Am I praying wrong? What am I doing wrong?
Oh great universe!
You got any answers.. at all?
Hope all is well. I like what you write and am pulling for you.
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