Can you do me a favor?
Can you read my mind.
There is so much I want to put out in words, yet, I haven't the foggiest where to begin and what to write about. Most of it, when I think about it, seems to just be me, sitting and complaining. Whining about what I what, who I am, and who I would like to be. That doesn't make for a very interesting read, now does it.
Or maybe it does, maybe you're all into that. I know that I have a hard time being deep in my blogs, yet my humor comes across alright. I think maybe it's because it's easier to be funny and lighthearted. To be sitting down and being serious, used to come really easy to me. I could turn it on at any second, actually, I think I was serious 24/7. A big grouchy sour puss really.
Now, sometimes, I find my mind trying to go back to that place, because it's almost natural for my mind to try to slip into that dark place that I abandoned so long ago. It can be a fight, to realize I am going to that place and saying No. That's not who I am anymore, nor do I want to be that person again.
See. Now I go back and read that and think, OMG SO EMO.
LOL I'm so glad I am a much happier person now. Go away emo feelings, I don't have time for your self pity.
No I'm not bi-polar. I wrote the first part and then thought about it for a bit, and then wrote this part.
Come on dudes, you know me better than that.
Can you read my mind.
There is so much I want to put out in words, yet, I haven't the foggiest where to begin and what to write about. Most of it, when I think about it, seems to just be me, sitting and complaining. Whining about what I what, who I am, and who I would like to be. That doesn't make for a very interesting read, now does it.
Or maybe it does, maybe you're all into that. I know that I have a hard time being deep in my blogs, yet my humor comes across alright. I think maybe it's because it's easier to be funny and lighthearted. To be sitting down and being serious, used to come really easy to me. I could turn it on at any second, actually, I think I was serious 24/7. A big grouchy sour puss really.
Now, sometimes, I find my mind trying to go back to that place, because it's almost natural for my mind to try to slip into that dark place that I abandoned so long ago. It can be a fight, to realize I am going to that place and saying No. That's not who I am anymore, nor do I want to be that person again.
See. Now I go back and read that and think, OMG SO EMO.
LOL I'm so glad I am a much happier person now. Go away emo feelings, I don't have time for your self pity.
No I'm not bi-polar. I wrote the first part and then thought about it for a bit, and then wrote this part.
Come on dudes, you know me better than that.
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